Hello guys,
today I'm going to talk about a subject thats near and dear to my heart that i don't think is addressed or spoken about enough,the reason I'm writing stuff like this is because its kind of a release for myself and for others to read my blog posts and get such a relief from whatever it is thats causing them problems.
Bullying...i know a majority of people will think oh great another person rabbiting on about something people know about but the problem is people know about bullying but not what it does to somebody or what comes with being bullied.
It used to be a tough subject for me to talk about but i guess now its gradually laid off I'm able to talk about it more freely now without feeling terrorised.
hopefully my story can help people speak out about being bullied and i hope it comforts some people who are struggling with being bullied.
The bullying for me really started when i was at a young age youngest i can remember it happening was around 5 which is seriously young,the bullying carried on all the way through primary school until i was 10 and then i went up to secondary school and it stopped for about 5 month because i had gone to a different school that my primary class went to but behold it started again but by a lot more people genuinely because i was small and wore glasses,i can remember it starting as just being called names like four eyes, jam jars, specky, midget they obviously hurt my feelings by saying stuff like that but it didn't get me down as it should have i still walked around smiling and just minded my own business whilst people didn't wanna mind theirs and tried to always put me down everyday up until year 8 about half way through and then it started to get physical which did scare me which it would anybody,but being the person i was i didn't tell anybody and then i started to retaliate in a sense by trying to do what they did to me...call them names which landed me in getting hit at school which i still didn't tell anybody about because i was in the wrong so i felt there was no point and then before i knew it i was being tripped up by boys and girls older than me,getting pencils,books and science goggles thrown at me in class and thats when i decided to tell somebody and surprise surprise nobody listened which was to expect from my school and it carried on and in year 9 i started skipping school because i genuinely was afraid of it and didn't wanna get hurt any more than i was this carried on until half way through year 9 and i then had an argument with a girl because she was bullying me and i retaliated and she threatened to stab me and i planned to go to school when i woke up but instead i ran away i hid because i was scared and i had enough and i got done obviously but it didn't help me no matter what i said i was lying and i was in the bad because i retaliated and then i carried on with school as normal as i was made to and i needed to get good grades (which i didn't get and you'll know why in a second) the torment carried on until year 10 just settled in and it got worse,they'd steal my phone and hide it and hold it up and tell me to jump for it, and then i was being seriously tormented by this one girl who i will not name but she tormented me the whole of the lesson and i went to take a drink out of my bottle and she smacked the bottom of the bottle and it hit my teeth so hard it pushed them back a little and i just blew and ran out of class and school and i didn't return until year 11 where school finally addressed the bullying and had it caught on schools cctv from months to even years and the education board agreed that it was a serious offence of bullying that the school had chosen to ignore for all the time i was there and i was home schooled until i returned to take my exams in year 11 but it didn't stop there,i was tormented online by 60% of the school and not an over exaggeration,still have the document to this day of being threatened to be stabbed,ran over,shot,beat up and also murderd by the people who i called my friends and by the people who bullied me year after year. and only from a months ago did it stop and did i feel free and finally happy after many horrible thoughts, violating and painful experiences. EVERYBODY can come out the other end better off it takes a little courage and gut instinct to tell you that it isn't right what people are doing and they can't get away with it,you've just got to believe in yourself and don't let them get you down or walk all over you,if me the weakest person ever can do it so can you.
stay smiling, stay positive and be YOU!!!!
toni xXx
Friday, 31 October 2014
Saturday, 25 October 2014
A little extra.
Heeeey guys,
so ive not had anything really exciting to write about for the past two day so I'm just gonna update and tell you all that i currently have a boraang life and have nothing better to do than write all day which i guess is kind of a bonus that i don't have to get up early but it gets extremely boring and all i have to do it write so a lot of post will be irrelevant to nothing at all just me catching up asking how all you lovely people are :)).
A while back i did a photo shoot where i wore a vintage 1980's chanel coat,tried to sell it to several people but they don't like it because its a spring piece, which is a shame because it is just outstandingly gorgeous but extremely long anyways ill insert a few pictures so you can check out its beauty for yourself. - two of the pictures are in a vintage style edit and one is in a loom edit.
see you soon.
Toni xXx
so ive not had anything really exciting to write about for the past two day so I'm just gonna update and tell you all that i currently have a boraang life and have nothing better to do than write all day which i guess is kind of a bonus that i don't have to get up early but it gets extremely boring and all i have to do it write so a lot of post will be irrelevant to nothing at all just me catching up asking how all you lovely people are :)).
A while back i did a photo shoot where i wore a vintage 1980's chanel coat,tried to sell it to several people but they don't like it because its a spring piece, which is a shame because it is just outstandingly gorgeous but extremely long anyways ill insert a few pictures so you can check out its beauty for yourself. - two of the pictures are in a vintage style edit and one is in a loom edit.
see you soon.
Toni xXx
Thursday, 23 October 2014
Be nice to one and another!
Holaaa I'm back but today not with much of a happy or beauty/fashion blog post is how you may put it.
Today i came across an article about zoella,the link was posted on Facebook by a person called Matthew Harris upon clicking on this link it brought up an article by a girl called Chloe Hamilton i thought id give it a read and see what it was all about...well upon reading this article i felt a sense of sickness in my stomach and a flood of sympathy not for zoella but for the writer of this blog post Chloe,the article basically slates zoella in every way possible Chloe even stoops down to name calling which is really petty and the fact this girl has gone out of her way to write a pretty long in depth article about how zoella isn't good for teenage community and how her name almost sounds like something from disney if i am particularly honest,it isn't a bad thing as you should know tons of teenage girls and boys look unto disney in a sense of comfort,acceptance and reliability.
To even adress a young aspiring teenage figure as deeply as you do is just outrageous and makes you sound utterly jealous of her success and her commitment to making peoples day by making videos direct to the teenage community making them feel better about them selfs and not utterly betrayed into thinking they're something different to zoella,she makes us people feel like we are a part of the beauty society when we think that we are different people to zoella and she shows us that we are not,we are all the same in the same skin and the fact you have such a strong disagreement against teenagers feeling like they are important then shame on you entirely.
You simply can not say what you have and not be jealous of what she's amounted to, she's a public figure because she doesn't judge people without knowing who they are and what they do, she doesn't call people names because she feels like it or because she is jealous of them,its really sad that sometimes people feel the way Chloe does and i hope she realises the entirety of her blog is just down right nasty and is entirely incorrect. you can find the jealously written article at http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/comment/sure-teenage-girls-need-role-models--but-not-of-the-zoella-kind-9809136.html
Thank you for reading and i hope that people be nice to one and another.
Toni xXx
Today i came across an article about zoella,the link was posted on Facebook by a person called Matthew Harris upon clicking on this link it brought up an article by a girl called Chloe Hamilton i thought id give it a read and see what it was all about...well upon reading this article i felt a sense of sickness in my stomach and a flood of sympathy not for zoella but for the writer of this blog post Chloe,the article basically slates zoella in every way possible Chloe even stoops down to name calling which is really petty and the fact this girl has gone out of her way to write a pretty long in depth article about how zoella isn't good for teenage community and how her name almost sounds like something from disney if i am particularly honest,it isn't a bad thing as you should know tons of teenage girls and boys look unto disney in a sense of comfort,acceptance and reliability.
To even adress a young aspiring teenage figure as deeply as you do is just outrageous and makes you sound utterly jealous of her success and her commitment to making peoples day by making videos direct to the teenage community making them feel better about them selfs and not utterly betrayed into thinking they're something different to zoella,she makes us people feel like we are a part of the beauty society when we think that we are different people to zoella and she shows us that we are not,we are all the same in the same skin and the fact you have such a strong disagreement against teenagers feeling like they are important then shame on you entirely.
You simply can not say what you have and not be jealous of what she's amounted to, she's a public figure because she doesn't judge people without knowing who they are and what they do, she doesn't call people names because she feels like it or because she is jealous of them,its really sad that sometimes people feel the way Chloe does and i hope she realises the entirety of her blog is just down right nasty and is entirely incorrect. you can find the jealously written article at http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/comment/sure-teenage-girls-need-role-models--but-not-of-the-zoella-kind-9809136.html
Thank you for reading and i hope that people be nice to one and another.
Toni xXx
Monday, 20 October 2014
OUTFIT OF THE DAY!
holaa,
so today i decided to do an outfit of the day,the photos aren't the best as they are taken on my htc phone i will eventually take better photos but its kind of hard atm so i hope nobody minds and enjoys my outfit of the day!!!
shirt - Miss selfridge
skirt- Primark
tights-Primark
also forgot to take a picture of my shoes but today my news are canvas pumps from Newlook i will insert a picture of them from new look.
Toni xXx
sorry for the large photo. http://www.newlook.com/shop/shoe-gallery/view-all-shoes/white-lace-patterned-laceless-plimsolls_313799710
Sunday, 19 October 2014
Favourite Youtubers/Bloggers.
Helllooo,
After spending a lot of my time for the past 3 months on youtube and scouting around different blogs and watching vlogs and also videos from the likes jacksepticeye,pewdiepie,cutiepiemarzia and grav3yardgirl,zoella i decided to tell you guys my favourite youtubers/bloggers this is in no order or is it the only people i like to watch in the spare time that i have atm its all who i can remember mostly.
-zoella
-pewdiepie
-tanya burr
-marzia
-pointlessblog (alfie)
-jacksepticeye
-grav3yardgirl
-tyler oakley
-troye sivan (also a wicked singer!!)
-joey graceffa
i also love listening to music covers by:
-megan nicole
-alex g
-jasmine thompson
-alyson stoner
-alyssa bernal
I can't remember anymore atm because i have a brain like a fish,this is in no what order or just it i have a lot more but i can't remember them,if anybody has any suggestions for me to check out I'm more than happy to check anybody's channel or blog out!
much love,enjoy your day and keep smiling!!!
Toni xXx
where the picture is from!
Saturday, 18 October 2014
Things ive learnt in the past year.
Holaaa,
Third blog post in one day i am on a roll today/tonight.
i was thinking of ideas and what to write and what i thought people would might like to hear and i had a few ideas but didn't have enough time to get everything ready for anything else so i hope this is just as enjoyable as anything thing else I've written.
i think the most important thing in this blog post is that people do take what I'm about to talk about into account and possibly learn something from my blog post.
i guess the main thing I've learnt this year is to not take things for granted because nothing lasts forever or stays the same,things change even when you don't expect it or want it to and it can break you emotionally or it can make you a better person it just depends what it is. But the most important thing is to just smile all the way through it and just be yourself,don't change for anybody else or their needs and don't change yourself because somebody expects more from you if they don't appreciate what you do when your doing your best they don't even deserve your least never mind your best. Most of all do you and don't let anybody tell you any different because if somebody takes yourself away then you are a blank canvas,even when you try to be somebody else it is obvious thats not you and people can see how much its hurting you,the important thing is that you smile and get rid of the people in your life who don't appreciate you and your personality and your work,smile because you are perfect the way you are and nobody should change themselves because somebody who doesn't even deserve your eye contact tells you to change. DO YOU because being yourself is the most beautiful thing you could ever do or be.
what i learnt this year is don't listen to people who put you down and tell you to change because you aren't apparently good enough,screw them we are who we are and nothing can change that!
STAY SMILING AND STAY BEAUTIFUL.
Toni xXx
photo was copied from go check their page beautiful pictures of inspirational quotes!!! http://www.cutequotestumblr.com/wp-content/uploads/we-heart-it-quotes-4.jpg
Third blog post in one day i am on a roll today/tonight.
i was thinking of ideas and what to write and what i thought people would might like to hear and i had a few ideas but didn't have enough time to get everything ready for anything else so i hope this is just as enjoyable as anything thing else I've written.
i think the most important thing in this blog post is that people do take what I'm about to talk about into account and possibly learn something from my blog post.
i guess the main thing I've learnt this year is to not take things for granted because nothing lasts forever or stays the same,things change even when you don't expect it or want it to and it can break you emotionally or it can make you a better person it just depends what it is. But the most important thing is to just smile all the way through it and just be yourself,don't change for anybody else or their needs and don't change yourself because somebody expects more from you if they don't appreciate what you do when your doing your best they don't even deserve your least never mind your best. Most of all do you and don't let anybody tell you any different because if somebody takes yourself away then you are a blank canvas,even when you try to be somebody else it is obvious thats not you and people can see how much its hurting you,the important thing is that you smile and get rid of the people in your life who don't appreciate you and your personality and your work,smile because you are perfect the way you are and nobody should change themselves because somebody who doesn't even deserve your eye contact tells you to change. DO YOU because being yourself is the most beautiful thing you could ever do or be.
what i learnt this year is don't listen to people who put you down and tell you to change because you aren't apparently good enough,screw them we are who we are and nothing can change that!
STAY SMILING AND STAY BEAUTIFUL.
Toni xXx
FAVOURITE CLOTHING SITES.
Hello,
back again but with a different approach i am writing about my favourite clothing websites because like a usual girl i am a shopaholic especially when it comes to online stores,being a girl its hard to find one website where i can just buy from but thats a difficult task so i buy from many!
these are my favourite clothing websites:
I am not getting paid by any of these websites i just thought some fashion girlies may want to know my favourite clothing sites.
Toni xXx
ZOELLA BEAUTY REVIEW
Hiya everyone,
i have another review today of the very well know Zoella's beauty items,first of all i am very proud of Zoella being a huge fan of hers myself i have tried many different products by all different brands and people and if I'm honest none is as quite as fascinating as Zoe's.
My favourite product from Zoe's line has to be the hand cream (creamy madly dreamy) i get really dry hands in the autumn and winter and this is really working wonders,it smells divine i just want to eat it!!.
£5 - Superdrug!.
My second favourite product is the body mist (Blissful mistful) it smells so beautiful its a balance between sweet and floral and that is the most gorgeous sent out there in the perfume/mist range overall Zoe's line is by far my favourite of all the products I've ever tried.
I have recommended these products to a fair few of my friends and i recommend you try these products yourself and maybe recommend a friend also i have fallen in love with Zoella's beauty brand and i will forever buy her products.
£8 - Superdrug
overall i give there products a 9.5 out of 10 :)))
adioss
Toni xXx
i have another review today of the very well know Zoella's beauty items,first of all i am very proud of Zoella being a huge fan of hers myself i have tried many different products by all different brands and people and if I'm honest none is as quite as fascinating as Zoe's.
My favourite product from Zoe's line has to be the hand cream (creamy madly dreamy) i get really dry hands in the autumn and winter and this is really working wonders,it smells divine i just want to eat it!!.
£5 - Superdrug!.
My second favourite product is the body mist (Blissful mistful) it smells so beautiful its a balance between sweet and floral and that is the most gorgeous sent out there in the perfume/mist range overall Zoe's line is by far my favourite of all the products I've ever tried.
I have recommended these products to a fair few of my friends and i recommend you try these products yourself and maybe recommend a friend also i have fallen in love with Zoella's beauty brand and i will forever buy her products.
£8 - Superdrug
overall i give there products a 9.5 out of 10 :)))
adioss
Toni xXx
Friday, 17 October 2014
Thursday, 2 October 2014
Creightons hair care!
Holaaaa,
I am back again with something still beauty related but fairly not i am reviewing a product regarding a girls maybe boys pride and joy,i am talking about hair products possibly my favourite so far from what ive tested on my very damaged hair from dyeing and bleaching.
I am back again with something still beauty related but fairly not i am reviewing a product regarding a girls maybe boys pride and joy,i am talking about hair products possibly my favourite so far from what ive tested on my very damaged hair from dyeing and bleaching.
The product i am reviewing is the creightons KPro keratin pro smooth and strengthen shampoo&conditioner!.
The formula
The formula of these hair products are the right consistancy you want within a shampoo and conditioner its not runny or too gloopy it is a great smelling formula, the conditioner is a traditional standard white conditioner. The shampoo is a balance between a clear and a white shampoo with a shimmer tone to it.
The smell
The smell of these products are very much like perfume a very sweet floral not something you'd find in a hair product such as these but it gives you the perfume smelling hair a majority of people want.
Overall rating
Overall i would rate this product 9/10 because of the performance of this product after 2 weeks of use i see a dramatic change in the texture of my hair.
Overall i would rate this product 9/10 because of the performance of this product after 2 weeks of use i see a dramatic change in the texture of my hair.
You can get this product from: http://www.beautyatcreightons.co.uk/product/keratin-pro-smooth-strengthen-shampoo-conditioner/
For just £1.99 each.
Or
For just £1.99 each.
Or
http://www.tjhughes.co.uk/creightons-keratin-pro-smooth-strengthen-conditioner.
For just £1 each!!!
For just £1 each!!!
Thankyou very much for reading! Adiossss.
Toni xXxX
Toni xXxX
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