A subject not spoken about enough.

Hello guys,
today I'm going to talk about a subject thats near and dear to my heart that i don't think is addressed or spoken about enough,the reason I'm writing stuff like this is because its kind of a release for myself and for others to read my blog posts and get such a relief from whatever it is thats causing them problems.
Bullying...i know a majority of people will think oh great another person rabbiting on about something people know about but the problem is people know about bullying but not what it does to somebody or what comes with being bullied.
It used to be a tough subject for me to talk about but i guess now its gradually laid off I'm able to talk about it more freely now without feeling terrorised.
hopefully my story can help people speak out about being bullied and i hope it comforts some people who are struggling with being bullied.

The bullying for me really started when i was at a young age youngest i can remember it happening was around 5 which is seriously young,the bullying carried on all the way through primary school until i was 10 and then i went up to secondary school and it stopped for about 5 month because i had gone to a different school that my primary class went to but behold it started again but by a lot more people genuinely because i was small and wore glasses,i can remember it starting as just being called names like four eyes, jam jars, specky, midget they obviously hurt my feelings by saying stuff like that but it didn't get me down as it should have i still walked around smiling and just minded my own business whilst people didn't wanna mind theirs and tried to always put me down everyday up until year 8 about half way through and then it started to get physical which did scare me which it would anybody,but being the person i was i didn't tell anybody and then i started to retaliate in a sense by trying to do what they did to me...call them names which landed me in getting hit at school which i still didn't tell anybody about because i was in the wrong so i felt there was no point and then before i knew it i was being tripped up by boys and girls older than me,getting pencils,books and science goggles thrown at me in class and thats when i decided to tell somebody and surprise surprise nobody listened which was to expect from my school and it carried on and in year 9 i started skipping school because i genuinely was afraid of it and didn't wanna get hurt any more than i was this carried on until half way through year 9 and i then had an argument with a girl because she was bullying me and i retaliated and she threatened to stab me and i planned to go to school when i woke up but instead i ran away i hid because i was scared and i had enough and i got done obviously but it didn't help me no matter what i said i was lying and i was in the bad because i retaliated and then i carried on with school as normal as i was made to and i needed to get good grades (which i didn't get and you'll know why in a second) the torment carried on until year 10 just settled in and it got worse,they'd steal my phone and hide it and hold it up and tell me to jump for it, and then i was being seriously tormented by this one girl who i will not name but she tormented me the whole of the lesson and i went to take a drink out of my bottle and she smacked the bottom of the bottle and it hit my teeth so hard it pushed them back a little and i just blew and ran out of class and school and i didn't return until year 11 where school finally addressed the bullying and had it caught on schools cctv from months to even years and the education board agreed that it was a serious offence of bullying that the school had chosen to ignore for all the time i was there and i was home schooled until i returned to take my exams in year 11 but it didn't stop there,i was tormented online by 60% of the school and not an over exaggeration,still have the document to this day of being threatened to be stabbed,ran over,shot,beat up and also murderd by the people who i called my friends and by the people who bullied me year after year. and only from a months ago did it stop and did i feel free and finally happy after many horrible thoughts, violating and painful experiences. EVERYBODY can come out the other end better off it takes a little courage and gut instinct to tell you that it isn't right what people are doing and they can't get away with it,you've just got to believe in yourself and don't let them get you down or walk all over you,if me the weakest person ever can do it so can you.
stay smiling, stay positive and be YOU!!!!
toni xXx